Ok, I admit. I’m feeling overwhelmed.
There’s a nagging sense that I have a project or multiple projects (!) I’m not completing that are looming over my head unfinished. The real problem is, I don’t know what they are exactly.
If I knew I could craft a thorough to do list with each major project broken up into digestible bits that I could gnaw off quickly, but without knowing what it is I’m supposed to be doing, I just can’t seem to get started or make that looming sense of unfinished business disappear.
I think I’ve narrowed it down to a few things that could be causing my malaise. And it’s not really unfinished projects causing me stress, more like fast approaching deadlines. Truly, I almost chuckled when I thought of this list. Perhaps you will too… out of pity.
- We are welcoming not, one, but TWO infants into our lives in 3+ ish months.
- We are 4+ months into the launch of a new business – still figuring out our systems and developing the overall strategy.
- In 5+ months I may have to leave my full-time career in yoga curriculum administration due to childcare costs.
Each of these items on the list is cause for major transformation and tumult. I want, I need, I crave a plan! Give me a big list of actionable items so I know what to do to make the most of the few months left before everything changes and the stakes get even higher!
I’m talking about a list of small things I can do in the in-between moments and during found time. 10 minutes here, 15 minutes there – maybe even an hour or two on the weekend or before I go to sleep. It reminds me of a list I made when Eli was an infant. I realized I never knew how long he would nap or be happily occupied so I made a list of things I could get done in 10 minute increments so I wouldn’t waste precious time trying to figure out what to accomplish. I just glanced at the list and chose something. It worked great and fed me with the momentum I needed to get bigger to dos done when I had more time.
Similarly, now, I fret over wasting any time at all. Even self-care needs a plan. If I lay on the couch scrolling my Instagram feed, I have a hard time calling that time “relaxing.” But if I’ve thought ahead and prepared myself for an evening bath with soaking salts, I feel soothed.
Even this blog is helping me to identify what I really need. I call that a good use of time! Otherwise I might just be wasting more minutes agonizing over my anxiety.
So, I’ve been thinking. And here’s my list so far. It starts with self-care because I know myself and without taking care of me, I’m not at my best for anyone else.
- Re-write my supplement regimen
- Set reminders on my phone for when to take each supplement
- Commit to 10 minutes of yoga each night
- Follow up on the therapist recommendation and set an appointment
- Add more protein to meals – prep hard-boiled eggs, smoothies, & bone broth
- Clean out the fridge so healthy food is easy to grab
- Meal plan so there are always enough nourishing snacks in the house
- Create a social media posting plan for Folklore so I’m not randomly scrolling at night
- Make a list of books to read with a page per night goal
- Ask around for babysitter recommendations
- Make a list of potential regular babysitters
- Schedule a weekly date with Simeon for Folklore business and personal check-in
- Set a time each week to review monthly budget and spending with Simeon
- Cull children’s books for donation
- Wrap gifts for holidays/birthdays/bat mitzvah
- Clear one corner of the basement
- Mail package that has been sitting in my car forever
- Set alarm for 30 minutes before Eli wakes up
- Meditate 5 minutes every morning
- Review this list!